title: On loving and hating my mentally retarded mother.
abstract: In this article I have explored why I love and hate my mother. It is a retrospective and ongoing participant observation of the phenomenon of being the daughter of a mother with mental retardation. In it, I make use of a layered account--an experimental, postmodern, ethnographic reporting format that enables researchers to use varied resources, such as social theory, lived experience, and emotions. By using my own experience, I explore, through first-person narrative, the complex issues and emotions involved. My conclusion is that the situation is fraught with ambivalence because my present interactions with my mother are cast in the light of a past where my mother simultaneously neglected and protected me.
authors.affiliation: Department of Sociology and Social Work, University of Memphis, TN 38152, USA. crronai@cc.memphis.edu
authors.forename: C R
authors.initials: CR
authors.lastname: Ronai
mesh_terms: D005260:Female; D006252:Hate; D006801:Humans; D008607:Intellectual Disability / Q000523:psychology*; D008149:Love; D008875:Middle Aged; D009034:Mother-Child Relations; D009035:Mothers / Q000523:psychology*; D012189:Retrospective Studies