title: Nurse experiences as cancer survivors: part I-personal.
abstract: OBJECTIVE
  To uncover dimensions of nurses' personal experiences of cancer survivorship.
  
  
  METHODS
  Interpretive, phenomenologic.
  
  
  METHODS
  Metropolitan area in the northeastern United States.
  
  
  METHODS
  25 RNs diagnosed with cancer. Average age was 50 years, and 20 participants were less than five years from initial diagnosis.
  
  
  METHODS
  Interviews. Analysis using methodology of Newman (1994, 1999) and Van Manen (1990).
  
  
  METHODS
  Nurses' personal experiences of cancer survivorship.
  
  
  RESULTS
  Themes of the nurses' personal experiences of survivorship included the shock of becoming a patient and multifaceted dimensions of the treatment experience, including time, coordinating their own care, the struggle to maintain normalcy, uncertainty, nonclinical self-care strategies, and encounters with caring and uncaring providers. Participants identified the need for supportive relationships both in personal and professional arenas throughout the survivorship process. The cancer experience became an opportunity for change in priorities.
  
  
  CONCLUSIONS
  Although nurse cancer survivors experience similar personal vulnerabilities to those of non-nurses, their vulnerabilities often are affected by their knowledge of the healthcare process and content of care with which they are most familiar. They also are affected by what they know is at stake. This particular insider vulnerability is not cited often in research literature and, therefore, is not recognized as a particular type of need that should be addressed in cancer survivorship.
  
  
  CONCLUSIONS
  Nurse patients need providers to be sensitive to their information and support needs, which may vary because of their professional experiences and personal resources. Findings suggest that nurse patients may need supportive approaches that target their unique vulnerabilities.
authors.affiliation: Connell School of Nursing, Boston College, Chestnut Hill, MA, USA. rosanna.demarco@bc.edu
authors.forename: Rosanna F
authors.initials: RF
authors.lastname: DeMarco
authors.forename: Carol
authors.initials: C
authors.lastname: Picard
authors.forename: Joan
authors.initials: J
authors.lastname: Agretelis
mesh_terms: D001291:Attitude of Health Personnel; D001294:Attitude to Health; D004645:Empathy; D006801:Humans; D008875:Middle Aged; D009369:Neoplasms / Q000523:psychology* / Q000628:therapy; D009511:New England / Q000453:epidemiology; D009726:Nurses / Q000523:psychology*; D009729:Nursing / Q000706:statistics & numerical data*; D011159:Population Surveillance; D012648:Self Care / Q000379:methods; D012657:Self-Help Groups; D012944:Social Support; D017741:Survivors / Q000523:psychology*