title: [A different person in 2 minutes].
abstract: I would like to describe the initial extreme physical and psychological effects of my posttraumatic stress disorder that appeared after multiple shocks from an implantable cardioverter-defibrillator, my surprise about my physical awareness, which I and apparently also the physicians could not understand, the feeling of helplessness, the lack of knowledge, the ignorance, and the unfairness of some of the physicians concerning my psychological illness, feelings of being stamped as a psychopath, not being believed, and being let down, my improvements during the course of the last 6 years, my current condition, and my appeal to physicians that better care be offered to patients with a similar illness.
mesh_terms: D000328:Adult; D000638:Amiodarone / Q000009:adverse effects / Q000627:therapeutic use; D000889:Anti-Arrhythmia Agents / Q000009:adverse effects / Q000627:therapeutic use; D000987:Antisocial Personality Disorder / Q000523:psychology / Q000534:rehabilitation; D001291:Attitude of Health Personnel; D005117:Cardiac Complexes, Premature / Q000523:psychology / Q000534:rehabilitation; D017115:Catheter Ablation / Q000523:psychology; D003131:Combined Modality Therapy; D003289:Convalescence; D003299:Cooperative Behavior; D017147:Defibrillators, Implantable / Q000523:psychology*; D057169:Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing / Q000379:methods; D016027:Heart Transplantation / Q000523:psychology; D006380:Helplessness, Learned; D006801:Humans; D033183:Interdisciplinary Communication; D008297:Male; D019300:Medical Errors / Q000523:psychology; D061212:Memory, Episodic; D010343:Patient Admission; D010817:Physician-Patient Relations; D011613:Psychotherapy / Q000379:methods; D011788:Quality of Life / Q000523:psychology; D012047:Rehabilitation Centers; D012050:Rehabilitation, Vocational / Q000523:psychology; D012803:Sick Role; D013313:Stress Disorders, Post-Traumatic / Q000523:psychology* / Q000534:rehabilitation; D013610:Tachycardia / Q000523:psychology / Q000534:rehabilitation
chemical_list: D000889:Anti-Arrhythmia Agents; D000638:Amiodarone