title: The countertransference: When painful traumatic traces sustain the countertransference and reveal themselves to the psychoanalyst … 14 years later!
abstract: Although she experienced, as did the many psychoanalysts before her, the countertransferential dynamics of disgust towards a patient presenting great deficiency in terms of mentalization capacity, the author strives to understand what urged her to tolerate the patient, to invest in her and lead her to develop a capacity for internalization, after 6 years of analytic work filled with transgressive-transferential acting-out. Fourteen years later, she becomes aware of the way in which the revival of some grief related to traumatic traces in her own lived experience, sustained, without her knowledge, a saviour/countertransference, creating a specific transferential-countertransferential spiral which rescued a situation whose advent could have been compromised. This could happen thanks to what she refers to as the unique inter-relation between her and this particular patient.
authors.affiliation: St-Joseph University (FLSH), P.O.Box 17 5208, Beirut, Lebanon. nbadawi@inco.com.lb.
authors.forename: Marie-Thérèese
authors.initials: MT
authors.lastname: Khair Badawi
mesh_terms: D000328:Adult; D003379:Countertransference; D005260:Female; D006801:Humans; D011369:Professional-Patient Relations; D000067073:Psychological Trauma / Q000523:psychology*
keywords: inter-relation; intersubjectivity; saviour/countertransference; transference/countertransference; trauma; war; work of the negative